I thinkin hindsight i cansay most of my problemscame from being very visible as a trans woman, together with residue from my old life not going away or reshaping itself to accomodate the real me, and of course, autism, dyspraxia and ADHD all having an impact.
The world doesn't want trans people to take control of their own lives - they will tolerate us to an extent but only to the point where we start to impact on their assumptions and prejudices and then they kick back.
A lot happened after 2015. My friends who had supported me since i came out decided to up and leave, and it wasn't exactly pleasant. But we're friends again so I need to let all that go.
Rich arrived and I became half of a couple again. I became almost famous for 15 minutes and it was shit. But the fall-out was worse because it nearly cost me my job and my mental health.
With Rich here i was suddenly struggling with money again, but I'd managed to pull things back at work for the moment. In 2015 my X started sending me abusive letters again demanding i give her my home, and divorce proceedings began; 2016 saw my mum get ill and die, then i fell out with my surviving family, then in 2017 i was reported to my employer as being a 'threat to women' and 'bringing my employer into disrepute', was suspended from work, had to go back onto anti anxiety medication. Upon sorting that out My employer forced us all to re-apply for our jobs. Got through that and the divorce came to a head - and it was the other end of the spectrum from friendly. Finally in 2019 - divorce is over, i have a job and i managed to retain the majority of the house, but my job is back at risk. It goes on for ever. but at least having to pretend I'm a man is not longer one of my problems.
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